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[ix] i'll never leave this floor

So many of you seem inflicted with laziness. Perhaps it is the effect of Their influence, but then why do I feel so much the same? It is possible that only some are affected; that information would be contradictory to the month's earlier activities, however, and inconsistent in a way that is inconsistent with Their general disorder. Even disorder has patterns to be detected.

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Control your children.

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Another drink tonight? I will pay.

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It is the only thing that I can liken it to. I do not usually care for such a sensation. ~~Even though it has been something of a respite~~ Even the ghosts are failing to truly motivate me right now. It is strange. It should not be.

I find it a comfort. What analysis will you offer of that?

Given your reaction to the previous matter that I told you I would no longer pursue attempting to convince you about, I say it would be a relief for you to not have to contend with your emotions as a mortal.

Edited 2011-03-28 00:09 (UTC)

I say it is refreshing to find others acting with logic and sanity. It has nothing to do with my own moods.

Of course not.

You mock me.

Somewhat, but only because you will not step back and take a look at yourself. Perhaps you do not remember the frustration and anger you projected that night, but I do. I do remember how angry you seemed when I told you I thought that you were incapable of feeling, and it was why I was embarrassed for what I had done.

Those are indications of having emotions, Phonos. Anger and frustration are emotions.

I have said my piece. And what I have said is logical. Do with it what you will, whether it is telling me I am wrong, and that I am illogical, and that I am foolish. I do not care at this moment in time what it is you do, as you likely think the same of me. Isn't this apathy what you've wanted here from the rest of us? If so, why are you asking these things?

And if I do have emotions? What do you expect? For me to court you like the other boy? Murder is not so pathetic, Melinoe.

I want true apathy of myself. Not in you.

You do have emotions, and the only thing I want from it is for you to acknowledge it and come to some sort of understanding within yourself. For your own peace of mind so you do not become so frustrated with everything because you are unsure.

Wait. What do you mean the other boy? Helenus? He is not courting me; he is my friend. He has ~~had~~ someone.

It's... interesting to know that you find the thought of courting pathetic.

And you were the one who said that you find it refreshing to see others acting with 'logic and sanity'. I would be one of those 'others', would I not?

I acknowledge myself capable of anger and frustration. Not ~~love~~ affections.

Of course.

I do not find courting pathetic. I find the idea of Slaughter courting to be pathetic.

Yes, but you are clearly neither sane or entirely logical at present.

If you do not, then why did you react so poorly when I had assumed you were not capable of holding affection for me, when I admitted I dodid for you?

I'm actually somewhat amused that you'd think that someone here would actually consider courting me. ~~It was the alcohol~~

Why do you find such a thing pathetic?

Then why are you talking to me about any of this if you feel that way?

You misunderstand. I was not reacting to that.

Why?

Because I am not meant to live such a life. My purpose is very clear.

I am curious.

What were you reacting to, then?

I am a goddess of death, considered a daughter of Hades despite my paternity, and a resident of the Underworld. I am not thought of highly in the realm of someone that would actually be worthy of a courtship--at least, not amongst those who live here.

You have a purpose, yes. I have one, too. But you also are mortal now; living in this mortal plane. You have an opportunity to do so much more. I try to as I tend to my duties. I feel more enlightened and enriched now. Normally I would, anyway--these past few days have left me feeling anything but.

You are often as such. But I would not recommend asking questions you do not wish to know the answers to. You cannot ask and then lash out at the answers you are given.

It is irrelevant to this conversation.

~~Then they are wrong.~~ ~~Perhaps you~~ Do you truly believe that?

I do not wish to be enlightened or enriched.

Why do you continue to speak to me?

I don't believe it is irrelevant at all, considering this entire discussion that we continue to have is based around it.

I truly do.

Then that is your prerogative. I, however, wish to make the most of my time spent here.

Why wouldn't I? Just because I become frustrated with you does not mean I do not wish to speak with you.

It is none of your concern then.

~~You are wrong.~~ I do not understand why.

Am I your entertainment then?

~~I thought I was part of that concern~~ Fair enough.

What is there to understand? There are those who do fear death and all its implications. They would believe that I am cold and incapable of love and all that comes with it. Some of them fear Hades. There are better prospects to be had for them.

Why would you think such a thing? Just because we have heated discussions does not mean I think ill or little of you. ~~I think of you often.~~

You believe yourself without suitors?

Then what do you think of me, child of Persephone?

The only one who has attempted to do so was my former employer. And while he was very nice, I did not feel the way he wanted me to. It would not have been very fair of me to allow him to believe that I did.

I should ask the same of you, Phonos, for I have told you before what I think of you, how I feel about you. You ignored what I had to say; told me that I was wrong. That I did not see clearly. Forgive me if I do not feel up to repeating myself. If you are ready to listen to me, as well as yourself, then I will answer your question.

~~Perhaps I can~~ Then perhaps you are right.

I can promise nothing, for I do not know.

Promise me nothing. Promises are too oft broken.

When you are ready, I will listen. When you are ready, I will tell you what you want to know to the best of my ability.

I will never be ready.

If you want to be someday, you will be.

Edited 2011-03-28 06:56 (UTC)

~~Help me.~~ Fine.

I know it is out of your comfort zone, and I am sorry. ~~Although this stupid Khaos issue is making it difficult to be so, I know I am.~~

I did not mean to hurt you with my words and actions.

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